Emily Belle Freeman
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THIS IS MY JOY

AND MY GREAT REJOICING

Quiet Is Good For the Soul

The Yellow Kite Trudy Doyle Sometimes when you wake up in the morning do you feel a pull?

Like when you fly a kite on a quiet Spring afternoon.  The bright yellow diamond soaring there against the clear blue sky, with white ribbon tail flapping gently in the breeze, and you anchored to the asphalt holding onto the roll of string and you feel the pull.

And you think that if you jumped at just the right moment you might soar.

And you want to.

I have been feeling that pull every morning since we started this challenge.

It's like my Spirit is ready to take flight, but my feet are stuck to the ground.

Stuck, really, to the pattern that is my life.  What I do, day in day out day in day out.

But something inside me is pushing the boundaries.  I hear the promptings…jump, leave this behind, do more here.  

Do more.

It's those two words that scare me.  Do more here.  There are moments when I feel the Spirit whisper where I am needed.  The problem is, I didn't calendar it.  It doesn't match the schedule.  It doesn't fit the pattern.

Sometimes it is specific… leave the laundry for now, don't worry about the piles of paper waiting, this is where you are needed, here, now.  Stop the pattern.  Live this moment.  Right here.  Right now.

I realize that I live the plans I made for my life.  Every day.

And they are not necessarily the plans He made.

But my plans are safe.  Wake up.  Straighten the house.  Call a friend to check in.  Take the forgotten paper to school.  Throw in a load of laundry.  Pay the bills.  Find time to work.  Shop for dinner.  This is the pattern of my day.

But since we started this challenge I have encountered a lot of stumbling blocks.

They are getting in the way of my pattern.

Unexpected plans…kids from the high school showing up for lunch willing to engage in conversations that are good if I stop the pattern.  Live this moment.  Right here.  Right now.  God's missionaries who stop by hungry and are willing to bless my home if I stop the pattern.  Live this moment.  Right here.  Right now.  Opportunities to lift hearts just waiting.  If I stop the pattern.  Live this moment.  Right here.  Right now.

Sometimes stumbling blocks are blessings.

They make us stop.

Slow down.

Brush ourselves off.

This morning I had an epiphany.

My pattern has been disrupted enough times that my whirlwind of a world has stopped and settled in fragments all around me.  Sitting there, amidst the pieces, I feel the pull.

My first inclination is to do what I always do in these moments.  My mind starts working in overdrive, a million miles a minute, I begin to pick up the pieces and organize them so that they will fit back into my pattern.  My plan.

But what if my plan is not His plan?

This morning I turned off the overdrive.  I slowed down…way down.  I left the pieces there and I turned my heart to God.

I couldn't feel Him there at first.

So I prayed a pray of gratitude.  Pure gratitude.  Until the Spirit filled my heart.

I embraced the quiet of that moment.

Then I gave Him the fragments of my life.

All the pieces.

And I prayed.  You prepare the way before me.  Like you did for Moses, and Joshua, and Noah, and Esther, and Hezekiah, and Peter.  You define my potential.  You make the plan.

You go out first every morning, Lord, and I will walk the path behind you.

Follow your patterns.

Live your plan.

There, in the quiet, the Spirit whispered the things my soul needed to know to move forward.

I realize every morning it must be the same.  It will be hard for me.  My first inclination is to take over.  Plan.  Strategize.  Organize.  Instead, this whole week, every single morning I am going to turn off the overdrive.  Slow down…way down.  Leave the pieces and turn my heart to God.

I am going to embrace the quiet of the moment and let the Spirit take the lead.

I, on my own, can't answer that pull.  I don't know where it's taking me.  I don't know what it will take to soar.

But He does.  And when silence surrounds His plan is made manifest.

"Stand still and see the salvation of the Lord."  (Exodus 14:13)

"Now therefore stand still, that I may reason with you…" (1 Samuel 12:7)

"When ye are come to the brink of the water of Jordan, ye shall stand still in Jordan."  (Joshua 3:8)

"Ye shall not need to fight in this battle: set yourselves, stand ye still, and see the salvation of the Lord with you."  (2 Chronicales 20:17)

This morning I learned an important lesson: If we want to let the Lord set the pattern we must begin the day with the silence that will allow us to hear the whisperings of the still small voice.  In those hushed moments we will be given daily that which will enable us to soar.

Quiet is good for the soul.

 

 

 

Emily Freeman