Emily Belle Freeman
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THIS IS MY JOY

AND MY GREAT REJOICING

Seek an Errand

Screenshot 2014-05-12 11.12.38 This is my family.

…well it's everyone who lives under my roof, and that makes them family.

I tell people all of the time that some of our kids came into our family by birth, and some of them came by love.

Ian and Garett came by love.

It was three years ago that Garett was standing on the side of the road with all of his belongings looking for a place to go and Greg brought him home.  Have you ever wondered what it might feel like to raise a giant?  That's what is happening over here.  We're raising a giant.  But he's not just big in stature, he is big in heart…and we love that heart.

Ian came knocking on our door late one night over a year ago.  With tears streaming down his cheeks he asked if Coach was home.  He was.  This boy had big dreams about serving Jesus and experiencing a change of heart and asked if there was room in our home for one more.  I remember clearly the moment when the Spirit reminded me that Ian was far more important than the space the ping pong table was taking up.  Sometimes the Spirit has to speak clearly like that.  I find that when I listen, great blessings come.

Our house is crowded.  It's loud.  There is always something going on.  People coming and going, bringing the commotion that is life and filling up every spare space in our house with it.  It is a happy commotion, the kind of commotion that accompanies growth and stretching and falling and getting back up again.

I should mention that the sink is always full, that the dishwater never stops and, for that matter, neither does the washing machine, that someone is awake almost every hour of the 24 that make up each day.  And the homework…oh, the homework.

I should also mention that I don't know if I have ever been happier.

This circus we live in?  I wouldn't trade it for anything.  Crazy?  True.

And sometimes I think to myself that I could be missing out on all of this…

A long time ago Greg and I decided what kind of people we wanted to be.  It came after a lot of discussion and introspection of who we are and want we wanted out of life.  We decided that one of the motivating themes of our life was to be the kind of couple that seeks an errand from the Lord.  Every day.

For many years a simple wooden plaque sat in the middle of our kitchen table.  It read, "On the Lord's errand."  It reminded us of our goal.  I just realized that I don't know what happened to that plaque.  I am sad about that…good thing we didn't misplace the goal.  It has become part of who we are.  It is one of the ties that binds us together.  And it is how we ended up with so many people living under one roof.

It is how we ended up with this blessing of commotion.

It was in October that the Spirit sent the prompting.  A scripture right in the center of the Doctrine and Covenants that jumped out of the page in into my heart…"and it shall be for a house for boarding, a house that strangers may come from afar to lodge therein; therefore let it be a good house, worthy of all acceptation, that the weary traveler may find health and safety while he shall contemplate the word of the Lord."  (D&C124:23)

I can remember sharing that scripture with the girls that afternoon and asking if they would be willing to open up their hearts like Emma was, willing to open up their house.  I was speaking hypothetically.

Funny.  There were just four of us living at home at the time.

Now there are 8.

People have come and gone over the year.  We have put up bunk beds in the living room, in the basement family room, we have invented closet space and moved furniture and squished together and squished together some more.

We have lived that scripture this year.  Sometimes I wish it hung somewhere in my home as a reminder of the Lord's preparing me for this moment.

I have fallen in love with that scripture.

I don't know that we have spent enough time contemplating the word of the Lord.  And I'm not sure you would say this house is worthy of all acceptation.  But it is a good house.

We have been blessed.

Immensely.

Because we sought an errand from the Lord.

Emily Freeman