Emily Belle Freeman
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THIS IS MY JOY

AND MY GREAT REJOICING

The Lord looketh on the Heart

Screenshot 2014-08-17 17.03.57 I walked up the steps and into the Shuttle waiting there on the curb.

After settling into my seat I tried to settle my heart.  North Carolina is not in my comfort zone.  For the record, neither are airplanes or traveling alone.  Anywhere.  Ever.

The driver asked me where I was from, and the reminder of how far I had come unsettled my heart again.  Utah.

You must be Mormon.

We spoke of scripture, and the book of Revelation, and Jesus…we talked of His grace.

For the record, I am in love with all of those things.  So was the shuttle driver.  By the time we arrived we had become fast friends.

He gave me my suitcase, and a smile for good measure, and for one split second I knew that he knew my heart.

In that moment, I was reminded of the goodness of God.

Later that night I was sitting on a white couch in the corner of a Christian gathering.  I watched closely and admired their devotion.

She entered the room with joy trailing behind and love leading the way.  With gratitude overflowing she spoke words of thanksgiving that we had come.  Close friends.  Fellow writers and speakers.  And one, who she had never met, who was here by Divine Appointment.

Her eyes caught mine, and for one split second I knew that she knew my heart.

In that moment I was reminded again of the goodness of God.

It's not by accident that I had arrived there.  I had come by way of invitation from a woman led by God who trusted my heart.  I went because God told me to go.

Even now, I still can't help but wonder why God led me there, so far out of my comfort zone.   Honestly, I don't know all there is to know about the Bible.  I struggle to comprehend grace.  I am fully confident that God could find someone far more knowledgeable and well versed in doctrine than I will ever be.

And my heart?  It wants to stay home, and grow peonies, and read Myrtle Reed, and eat raspberries.

But my heart loves God more than comfort.

And God…He knows my heart.

And I'm learning that Sometimes God asks us to do things that are not in our comfort zone simply because He knows our hearts.

The Bible teaches that "God looketh on the heart." I believe that is true.  And He doesn't just look on our hearts...he stretches them, and unsettles them, and causes them to enlarge.

For that I am grateful.

I trust God. I know His goodness. And I know He knows what my heart is capable of.

I believe that He can mold me into who He needs me to be --a Mormon girl with a Christian heart.

So, "Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it.  Seal it for thy courts above."

 

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